Welcome to my very first blog post!
If you've found your way to this site, you're probably interested in astrology, tarot, and/or general self-care, and I'm super stoked to talk with you all about the universe and all the cool stuff going on out in the cosmos that resonates with the cool stuff going on inside each and every one of us.
I woke up this morning with a need for things to be different. Right now I work a corporate job, and I dabble in astrology, tarot, and the arts on the side. I have to be honest. I am not built for Corporate America. That's not to say I haven't been successful (by traditional measures), but if you're here, then I'm sure you already know that success isn't always about making the most money and having the nicest corner office.
Yesterday was my birthday, and I got what I considered to be some bad news in the afternoon. I had been hoping for this position I'd been interviewing for since January, and I found out I wasn't chosen.
I have been feeling smothered and unable to focus in my current line of work for the past 5 years or so, but I've been pushing forward - looking for the next best thing. I've noticed that I've had a terrible time getting job offers. In the past, prior to the last 2 years, there wasn't a single position I interviewed for that didn't result in an offer. However, in the last 2 years, I've interviewed for 3 positions to be given feedback that I'm an excellent interviewer, but that another candidate was chosen. This was the case for the company that contacted me yesterday as well.
Initially, I had the standard reaction - disappointment, a brief feeling of hopelessness, bruised ego, etc. But, I went to sleep, and I woke up with a few minutes of incredible mental clarity. Maybe what I was taking as career doom and gloom was really the universe telling me that it's time to shift my focus and let go of this career that ultimately doesn't suit me. (Kind of a Uranian/Plutonian concept, for those of you who are already well-versed in the astrological language.)
Of course, I won't be quitting my job today - who among us can really afford that? I have the dreaded student loans, a mortgage, and a husband and pets who depend on me financially. But, if I'm being honest with myself, I'm not enacting the power of my North Node in my life. It's in my 8th House in Aries, which carries a lesson about action, transformation, standing on one's own two feet, and the power of being alone - really, it's all about courage.
I love astrology. I lose time reading charts and studying the archetypes. The only reason I haven't started on this project sooner is that I hadn't found the courage that my North Node required of me to put myself out there. I've been afraid of failure, as I think many of us have experienced at some point or another in our lives.
I don't know what this project will become, but my hope is that together we can create a community and a discussion around astrology, tarot, and all things self-care. I know that the website is somewhat bare at the moment, but I intend to grow it. Remember, I still have a day job.
I will be posting weekly blogs and starting up a weekly podcast. Additionally, I will be listing goods/services (tarot and astrology artwork and jewelry, calligraphy natal charts, and astrological readings) for sale online as I build out the website. So, please be patient as I work to put everything together, and thanks so much for your support.